Once upon a time, Gezary Matuda â three-time black belt world champion, two-time color belt world champion, and owner of one of the most notoriously dangerous armbars in elite competition â didnât even own a laptop.
âItâs very hard for us, as professional athletes, to live without challenging ourselves,â Matuda tells The Jiu-Jitsu Times, âso weâre always looking for new challenges. But at the same time, when we find those new challenges, we discover that we donât know how to do anything else besides our sport.â She laughs. âWeâre like white belts at everything else in life! Weâve spent so much time doing only one thing that weâre really good at, when that ends, and we try to transition to something else, itâs like, âoh man, Iâm a white belt here!ââ
Matuda is certainly no white belt when it comes to computer fluency now. Boasting a highly active Instagram account with nearly 200 thousand followers, a successful virtual jiu-jitsu and fitness instruction program, and natural ease with video conferencing and online communication, sheâs one of many modern jiu-jitsu superstars leveraging the power of the Internet to develop a fruitful second career.
Building a career beyond the tournament scene hasnât always been easy, though. An athlete whose longevity in elite competition has extended well into her mid-thirties, Matuda explains that thereâs a unique and dangerous thrill to succeeding as an older jiu-jitsu player against younger contenders. âAs professional athletes, we donât know our own limits,â she confides. âFirst, we just want to prove that we can fight. And after a certain point, we want to prove that we can still fight. Itâs like, âeverybody knows that I can fight, but now I want to prove I can still fight!â Against twenty-year-old girls, Iâm like âno, I can do it!ââ
Of course, the fact that Matuda has collected her fair share of victories as a thirty-something against those twenty-year-old upstarts has only fueled her competitive drive. Matuda describes the life of the elite jiu-jitsu athlete as an addictive cycle. âThere is nothing that compares to this great feeling of being a world champion as a black belt,â she explains. âThe feeling that all that hard workâs paid off. Itâs hard to find something else thatâs going to give you the same pleasure in life. So thatâs why you want more, and more, and more. Every year you win that title, it feeds that adrenaline. You get addicted to this feeling. Everything else feels boring. Everything! If you ask me if I do something outside of jiu-jitsu, my answer is just âeat, sleep, and train.â This is what brings us pleasure â the serotonin, the adrenaline, all the things that make us feel great. Thatâs why I think itâs so hard when you start to think about stopping.â
She poses a question thatâs haunted her on occasion: âWho is Gezary Matuda without a gi?â
Itâs been a sobering identity crisis of sorts. âWho am I going to be, if Iâm not there at the world championships, bringing more titles home?â Matuda asks. âWhat are people going to say? Are they still going to love me? Whatâs my value outside of jiu-jitsu?â She pauses. âYou kind of start to feel lost, you know?â
Matuda credits her Shoyoroll sponsor, Bear Quitugua â better known simply as âBearâ â with finally pushing her to expand her horizons. âHe was always the one whoâd be like âGe, whatâs next?ââ Matuda affectionately mimics Bearâs gruff intonation.
Matuda reacted defensively at first. âWhat do you mean, you think I cannot beat these girls?â she recalls demanding. âOh, well, if you donât believe in me and donât want to sponsor me anymore, then just tell me!â
âGe, itâs not that,â Bear replied patiently. âIf you want to stay on the mats for the rest of your life, fighting and competing forever, I will support you. But I just think you’re capable of so much more than just jiu-jitsu. I just want you to open your mind and think outside the box.â
According to Matuda, Bear has never been afraid of serving as her voice of reason. In response to Matudaâs stubborn insistence on training harder and harder with each passing year, Bear asked a simple question of his athlete: âYou already have five world titles. What more do you want?â
Matuda pondered this for a moment before answering, âWell, how many can I have?â After all, what could be more important than another world title? The notion sounded insane to her at the time.
âGe,â said Bear, âyou could have five, six, seven, ten world titles, but nothingâs going to change in your life. You know this.â
Matuda knew he was right. She remembers her thoughts on her very first world title, and the expectations sheâd built up around that early dream. âI thought to myself, âAfter I have my first world title, my life is going to change,ââ she confides. ââMy life is going to be completely different. Sponsors are going to show up, everybodyâs going to know me!ââ She grins, all self-deprecation. âAnd guess what? After that first-world title, nothing changed. Your life wonât change â the changes happen internally. If you let your ego get in the way, you will just be another world champion. Today, I understand that Bear wanted to show me that itâs not my titles that define who I am â itâs my attitude.â
Matuda encourages her fellow athletes to develop a strong support system, much like hers and Bearâs â particularly when theyâre considering a career change. In her view, itâs important for high-level performers to get comfortable sharing their feelings with someone they trust. âProfessional athletes, we donât show a lot of emotion,â she explains. âWe train to be killers. We train to be strong. We donât want to show a weak side. If you have a moment of weakness, you clean up your tears and keep fighting. So, to open up to someone you trust, and admit that youâre feeling kind of weak, and to have someone listen â that makes a huge difference when youâre dealing with a career transition.â
Athletes need to do a lot of work to prepare themselves â psychologically as well as physically â for that transition, Matuda believes. âOtherwise, one day, youâre going to be forty years old, wondering what comes next,â cautions Matuda, who warns other athletes to be prepared for feelings of guilt. âIâd think to myself, âIâm so good at what I do, what am I going to do next? I donât know how to do anything else.ââ She elaborates, âThatâs when you feel so lost. And thatâs when depression and anxiety happen. Thatâs why you have to know yourself.â
There is, however, a silver lining to the stubbornly competitive mentality of a professional athlete. âWhatâs cool is that we have this attitude where weâre determined to come back and find a way to become champions, even when weâre really down,â says Matuda. âAnd that attitude applies to anything else we do in life. If I decide now that Iâm going to be a chef, even if I have zero cooking talent, I know that Iâm going to find a way to be a chef.â Matuda may be a self-described white belt at life outside of jiu-jitsu, but sheâs proud of her black belt mentality, which translates into a steely discipline in every new project she tackles.
Sheâs also, after a long struggle, finally learned how to give herself a bit of a break. âNow, I understand that I donât need to be the best at everything,â says Matuda. âBecause when I started jiu-jitsu, I was not the best either. So I know that what I decide to do now, itâs not going to be easy. Itâll be hard. But Iâll overcome that because I have the discipline to conquer those challenges.â
One of her greatest learning experiences on that front was taking up yoga. âIt made a huge change in my mindset,â says Matuda. Then, with characteristically cheeky frankness: âBecause itâs super hard and always boring! In my first yoga class, the teacher looked at me â while I was shaking, trying to hold a pose â and asked, âyouâre a jiu-jitsu fighter, yeah?ââ
The yoga teacher advised Matuda to let the pose go â something the latter was decidedly unaccustomed to hearing. âNo, I can do it,â Matuda insisted.
The yoga teacher pushed back gently: âDonât be too hard on yourself.â It was the opposite of the mentality Matuda had spent her entire life cultivating. âIt was like opening a new window in my brain,â says Matuda. âThatâs how you find balance â even if youâre a fighter, we have to have this soft side. Most of the time, we hide it, because we think itâs weak. But weakness is actually what makes you strong, if you know how to control and balance your emotions.â
What about those rumors about Matuda entering the world of mixed martial arts? The MMA allure isnât without its shine for Matuda, whose personal circle of girlfriends includes several highly successful female UFC fighters, including current top five strawweight contender Mackenzie Dern, former two-division champion Amanda Nunes, and Matudaâs own jiu-jitsu student, Muay Thai specialist Joanna JÄdrzejczyk.
As the only jiu-jitsu black belt world champion currently at American Top Team, Matuda has proven a valuable coaching resource for JÄdrzejczyk, who seeks to complement her elite striking skills with a grappling game to match. Unlike a typical kickboxing specialist whose grappling repertoire focuses almost exclusively on basic defensive wrestling and sprawl-and-brawl tactics, JÄdrzejczyk â under Matudaâs watchful eye â has developed a true hunger for mastering the art of jiu-jitsu.
âWorking with her is super easy,â says Matuda, likening JÄdrzejczykâs mentality to that of MMA legend Anderson Silva. âSheâs a professional athlete, a martial artist. And she wants to learn, thatâs the thing. She told me that she wants to compete at ADCC! She wants to be an IBJJF world champion! She loves jiu-jitsu, and she wants to do everything. She asks me so many questions â sheâs one of the hardest working athletes Iâve ever seen. If you let her, sheâll train all day. She has a lot of energy. Sometimes, my job is to calm her down and make her relax.â
Laughing in fond exasperation, Matuda adds, âWhen we go to the beach, itâs so funny, because sheâll bring a soccer ball, a volleyball, a board, a snorkel, sheâll bring so many things! And Iâll be like, âJ, can we just relax?ââ
Surrounded by friends like these, itâs hard to fault Matuda for being tempted to step into the cage herself. But sheâs also far more aware than most of the countless sacrifices cage fighters make â and isnât so sure she wants to pay that price. Figuring out the optimal weight class alone would be a challenge. âIn ONE FC, the lowest weight is 115. J â Joanna, sheâs twice my size, and she weighs 115, so Iâd probably have to cut to 105,â says Matuda.
Weight cut aside, thereâs also the matter of how much space would be left in Matudaâs life for her other passion projects. âI always think, âShould I fight? Do I have to, or do I want to? Is it something I really want to do, or is it just my ego wanting me to prove something to someone?â Matuda knows herself well by now â and she knows that her inherent drive as a professional athlete would push her to go all in on any endeavor she tackles, whether itâs in the cage or elsewhere. âIf I do MMA, itâs going to be âeat, sleep, trainâ all over again,â she explains. âSo all my projects, everything Iâve started to do that Iâm working on â everything where Iâm still a âwhite beltâ â would fall to the side.â
Right now, Matudaâs biggest passion project by far is developing herself as a teacher. According to Matuda, it was Emily Kwok of Princeton Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu â herself a black belt world champion and renowned jiu-jitsu instructor â who first convinced Matuda that the latter had real teaching chops. During the early days of the pandemic in 2020, Matuda chatted with Kwok, who encouraged Matuda to create remote learning opportunities for jiu-jitsu students stuck in quarantine. Matudaâs first virtual workshop was free and taught on behalf of her sponsor, Shoyoroll. Focusing on the fundamentals of bodyweight fitness for grapplers, the class attracted over three hundred students â including combat sports luminaries such as Marcus âBuchechaâ Almeida, Anderson Silva, Lucas Lepri, and the Ruotolo brothers.
Granted, given the pandemic, none of them were exactly fighting fit at the time. Matuda chuckles, remembering, âBuchecha was sweating and drinking water!â
Matuda couldnât resist teasing him a little: âItâs not too easy, is it, Buchecha?â
âMan,â Buchecha protested, âIâm on vacation!â
Kwok, who attended the class, wasnât about to let Matudaâs teaching talent slide by unnoticed. âYou were so natural,â she told Matuda. âYouâve got to set up these classes online.â
Matuda â at the time, still a self-described âwhite beltâ in computer literacy â balked initially: âI donât even know how to set up a Zoom meeting!â
Matuda expresses gratitude for Kwokâs patience, as the latter carefully walked her through the basics of virtual teaching. âEmily, I donât even have a laptop!â Matuda complained.
Bear, unimpressed with this predicament, chimed in: âI pay you every month, what do you do with that money?â
âI donât know,â said Matuda, a little cowed. âWhat should I buy?â
Bearâs answer was immediate and merciless: âA laptop.â
The first lesson Kwok ever taught Matuda? âOpen your email,â Kwok told her, no-nonsense as ever.
Much like a jiu-jitsu curriculum, sometimes the fundamental lessons are the most valuable. Since that first piece of advice from Kwok â and the acquisition of a laptop â Matuda has been teaching an all-levels class to a group of regulars who meet online every Saturday, and have remained loyal students for over a year. It was the first time since winning a world championship that Matuda felt something akin to that same thrill of victory.
When asked if this is evidence that Bear was right all along â that Matuda would eventually find happiness, self-value, and a true passion beyond the competition â Matuda laughs. âBear is always right,â she insists, adding that sheâs happy for The Jiu-Jitsu Times to quote that admission in print. âYou know, in 2014, he told me I had to get an Instagram.â Matuda had refused. âI have no time,â sheâd insisted.
Bear refused to back down. âGe, itâs going to be very important.â
Matuda finally caved to the request â reluctantly.
Not done pushing his luck, Bear told Matuda, âYou should post a selfie.â
âBear,â said Matuda, balking once again, âyou will never see me post a selfie.â
This insistence â as anyone who scrolls through Matudaâs vibrant Instagram presence can attest â did not last. When Matuda posted her first selfie to the account, Bear refused to let her live it down. âSelfie queen!â he crowed playfully.
âHeâs always right â his vision is always looking ahead,â says Matuda. âThatâs Bear. Whatever Bear does now, thatâs what people end up doing later. Heâs always thinking outside the box. It took me a few years to understand what he was trying to say to me, but he really guides me.â
While jiu-jitsu may technically be an individual sport, Matuda is a team player at heart in more ways than one â an attitude sheâs also applied to her budding teaching career. In 2017, she collaborated with fellow jiu-jitsu phenom Dern to co-host an all-female training camp in Cannes, France. Matuda speaks highly of Dern as both a close friend and valuable partner in her teaching endeavors: âMe and Mackenzie are very good friends, so we know each other not only on the mats but also outside the gym. Out there, we barely talk about fighting or jiu-jitsu â when weâre together, we talk more about life. Which actually works very well on the mats â when she gives me a look, I know exactly what sheâs thinking. That connection makes everything easier.â
As for the differences in their grappling styles, this proved more of a boon than a hindrance. âOf course our styles are different,â says Matuda, âbut the concepts are the same. Weâll show a position, and Mackenzie will show what she likes to do, then Iâll show what I like to do.â This, explains Matuda, offers students with different body types and attributes a greater variety of customizable technique options â but built on the same solid foundation of fundamentals.
Dern and Matudaâs synchronicity â and easygoing affability with each other â worked wonders for their all-female class as well. As Matuda explains, âThe girls doing this camp, they can feel that energy, that thereâs no competition between [me and Mackenzie]. Society has raised women to compete against each other, like âOh, Iâm better than her. If Mackenzieâs position is here, then mine has to be a thousand times better, because I want to have more attention.ââ
Matuda offers a hypothetical here: âNow, imagine a camp of forty-five girls, and what would happen if they saw these two strong female instructors at the front of the class constantly competing against each other that way. The girls would try to kill each other!â Instead, by modeling her naturally strong bond with Dern, Matuda hopes to encourage their students to emulate the same collaborative attitude. âThis is why I like to work with strong women. They donât need to prove anything to anyone. Instead of competing, we raise each other up. The more I raise Mackenzie up, the more I know sheâll raise me up too. Thatâs how we open up jiu-jitsu to more women.â
Working with women and girls proved the true turning point for Matudaâs search for a purpose beyond the addictive grind and elation of elite competition. âIt was really hard for me to find something that gave me the same kind of pleasure, and then I found this. Now, itâs my life goal: bringing women to jiu-jitsu. This is my next world title.â
Matudaâs passion for lifting up other women in a male-dominated sport has also been informed by bitter experience. She recalls the difficulties of navigating the color belt ranks, usually as the only female student in an academy. âI know how hard it is to be a girl in jiu-jitsu,â says Matuda. As a fresh purple belt, Matuda found herself at the mercy of one coach who tried to convince her to quit jiu-jitsu. âJiu-jitsuâs not for you,â he insisted, according to Matuda. Knowing that she was the only girl in the academy, heâd tell her that none of her teammates wanted to train with her. âI think thereâs something in the structure of your brain that canât put the pieces together,â he told Matuda. âYou should do something else, but jiu-jitsu is definitely not for you.â
She almost believed him. She cried, mulled over his words for a few weeks, then changed gyms. It was, to put it lightly, the right call.
Matuda won her first world championship as a purple belt that year. It was the best possible revenge against the coach who had nearly bullied her out of her lifeâs calling. âI had so many hard experiences,â says Matuda. âAnd I just want to make it easier for the next generation. Iâm lucky to have so many friends like Mackenzie, Amanda Nunes, and Joanna â and I just know that if we lead the way, and create space for them, itâs going to be easier to bring in more and more girls. Iâve worked with kidsâ classes for the past eight years, and I can see the difference when thereâs a woman on the mats. Parents bring their boys to class all the time â but then the boysâ little sisters see, âAh, thereâs a girl! Sheâs a black belt! I want to try this too.â So they see that jiu-jitsu isnât just for their brothers, itâs also for them.â
Itâs not only men who serve as gatekeepers in jiu-jitsu, either. Some female jiu-jitsu practitioners â perhaps internalizing the old boysâ club mentality of combat sports â develop an animosity toward fellow women they deem âtooâ feminine. Matuda explains, âOther girls will be like, âWhatâs this girly girl doing here? Surely, she doesnât want to fight. Sheâs just here because she wants attention, so she can take selfies.ââ
Matuda frowns on this type of stereotyping, insisting that thereâs no such thing as âtoo girlyâ for jiu-jitsu. âYou have to tell [new girls] the rules,â she says. âTake the time to explain that they need to cut their nails and watch the makeup â you canât expect them to know that automatically when theyâre just starting. We can guide them. We can make it easier.â
She encourages women of all gender expressions and body types to try the sport out. âItâs not just for big and strong girls â itâs for everybody. You donât want to compete, thatâs fine too â you can still do jiu-jitsu.â She also speaks out sternly against women who become overly territorial of their status as the only female jiu-jitsu player at a gym: âThere would be this mentality among women like, âOh, if this other girl comes to my gym, weâre gonna smash her! Sheâs not going to survive.â No, weâve got to change this. If we want to bring everyone into jiu-jitsu, weâve got to deconstruct that small-minded mentality. The white belt girl whoâs too intimidated to walk into a jiu-jitsu gym â itâs because of this attitude.â
Matudaâs passion for passing the torch to the next generation of female jiu-jitsu practitioners isnât just about success in the sport either â she also believes strongly in the power of jiu-jitsu as a no-nonsense self-defense system against a world that remains physically hostile to women. âEvery single girl â every woman â on this planet should learn self-defense,â says Matuda. âAt the very least, they should know two or three positions where they can defend themselves.â
Matuda herself received an unwelcome reminder of the grittier applications of jiu-jitsu at a recent tournament. According to Matuda, a man in the audience â whom sheâd never seen in her life â grabbed her with sexually aggressive intent. Luckily, for the five-time jiu-jitsu world champion, muscle memory â and righteous fury â kicked in. Wrenching the aggressorâs arm into a kimura grip, she forcibly removed his hand from her body and shoved him away.
âMan, donât touch me!â she yelled at him. âDonât touch people like that, are you crazy?â
âYou donât know who I am,â he scoffed in turn.
âI donât give a fuck,â responded Matuda. âYou touched the wrong girl.â
At the time, her well-meaning male companions tried to imply that sheâd overreacted. One of them, a police officer, explained to her that such incidents were commonplace. âGe, thatâs pretty normal,â heâd said resignedly, according to Matuda. âSometimes, the girls even like it.â
Matuda was outraged. âThat is not normal,â she insisted. âThat should not be normal. Donât tell me that. Do you know why? Because youâre not a girl. Youâre not a woman. You have no idea how weâre feeling. Donât come to me and tell me that a man touching a woman that way is normal because youâre not a woman. Youâre never going to feel that way in your life.â
According to Matuda, itâs been fifteen years since a man has harassed her personally. In Brazil, during her younger years, she endured garden variety street harassment, but none since she began her martial arts training, first with Muay Thai, and eventually with jiu-jitsu. âMartial arts gives you confidence,â says Matuda. âPeople who attack others know who to target â and they usually go for the weakest. People will read you â even little things like posture. They know who to attack.â
âCan you imagine what would happen in this situation, for a girl who doesnât have the training or the confidence to tell him âno, donât touch meâ?â she asks. Knowing how frequently women deal with incidents like this one infuriates Matuda. âI canât believe that in 2022, these things still happen daily. Weâve got to do something,â says Matuda. This is also why she has no patience for drama or petty egos in womenâs jiu-jitsu. âWe need to stop with this attitude of âoh, I want to be the only girl on the mat.â Weâve got to work together â and fight for ourselves â because nobody else is going to do it for us.â
Matudaâs still processing the unwelcome incident at the tournament. âIâm not proud of the way I reacted,â she confides. âI wish I could have solved the problem in a more sophisticated or classy way, somehow. I feel embarrassed â I know I shouldnât feel embarrassed â but I feel embarrassed over the situation. It really hit me hard.â
But it was also the sign she needed to start tackling one of her greatest goals as a teacher: making the self-defense side of jiu-jitsu more accessible to women. âThis is why itâs so important for girls to know self-defense â and I say self-defense, not jiu-jitsu,â says Matuda, âbecause if you say jiu-jitsu, people have this mentality that you have to be a fighter and competitor. Thatâs not what this is. We have to teach young girls how to protect themselves. How to posture up, look someone in the eye, and say, âStop. No. Donât touch me.â
âItâs crazy, how the world puts you in these situations because this self-defense program is something Iâve always wanted to do, but kept telling myself Iâd do it later. But now? Now Iâm definitely going to do it.â
Does Matuda have any general words of wisdom for those who seek mentorship from her? âOne thing that I always tell people is that everything that makes you happy â go for it,â Matuda advises. âDo it. I always say that I wake up every day, I put on my gi, and I go chase my dreams. People may not believe in you, and people may doubt you, but if something makes you happy, and you have this feeling that itâs important, keep going. The goals you set in life should not be easy. They should push you to the next level, and you have to believe in yourself. Thatâs it, nobody else. Only you.â
Matuda practices what she preaches. She still wakes up every morning, puts on her gi, and chases her dreams â and while those dreams may not always be on an IBJJF podium, Matuda remains determined to use jiu-jitsu to change the world for the better. âYou cannot put a limit on anything,â says Matuda. âThe only limit is you, your mind. When hard work meets opportunity, thatâs when success happens.â
You can book virtual group fitness classes and private lessons with Gezary Matuda at her official website. For updates on her ongoing projects, follow her on Instagram.